Homeschooling, Housecleaning & Husband?!

I know it’s been forever since I’ve posted!!! Things have been crazy and yet nothing interesting has really happened. Interesting how that happens. Live hasn’t slowed down at all in the sense that I still have 3 young children…yes, I have managed to keep them alive 😉!! Anyway, lately I’ve been head deep in figuring out Paul’s homeschool schedule and everything that entails and trying to stay on top of house work.

I’ll start with the new adventure of homeschooling. So, for those of you who don’t know, I had to pull Paul out of school in May. The anxiety and stress he was feeling from having to go to school was just too much!! He held it together at school, but once he got in the van or home, he let everything out. It got to a point where it was not safe for anyone. So, I made the decision to put Paul in Anchor Academy’s Special Education Distance Learning Program. Up to this point, I have had nothing but an amazing experience with the school. I have the freedom to let Paul learn how he needs it. I am able to give him the support he needs, and I have an amazing team of people surrounding and supporting Paul. I couldn’t be more blessed to have such skilled, loving people working with Paul. They only want the best for him, meet him where he is at, and they want him to succeed.

I’ve been plugging away at organizing and cleaning the house to prepare for September 3rd when we start school for Paul. That’s when I realized how completely unorganized and messed up my life, and thus my house is. I know this is probably just me being super hard on myself, but I can’t seem to keep up with all the housework. If I can stay on top of one room, the others are let go. It seems as if I just can’t get everything I want to done in a day. I feel like I’m living in chaos once again. I guess it’s time for my to complete my purge and get motivated to actually do it. I’ve started in each room but never actually managed to finish a single room. I know I need to just pick a room and do it. But it’s easier said then done. Especially when you are the one and only and have to be on 100% of the time. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE that I have my kids all the time. I wouldn’t change it for the world. It’s just sometimes it’s hard.

Enough of that…on to something else. I’m starting to feel helpless. Paul and Nate are always asking when they get a step dad. And when I say always, I mean like multiple times a day. I’m at a lose on what to even say to them anymore. I mean they ask God every night for a step dad. Naomi has also started going around pointing at men and saying “Daddy.” It’s so crushing to me know. It breaks my heart to see how badly they want a dad and to have that constant positive male in their life. So I guess, if you know of a single guy who wants an instant family, I’m taking applications 😉 LOL!

On a completely different note, I had to go back to Court this week…ugh!!! It seems to be never ending and I really must come to terms with that fact. It’s just frustrating how everything lingers and takes forever, without really having any conclusion. November 2nd, I have to go to a half day trial….so I guess that’s a step in the right direction?! I’m just hoping for some rest, peace and some conclusion to this whole situation. Also, I am officially divorced now. Thank the Lord…hahaha. It’s super exciting to me to legally have that chapter of my life closed. On to bigger and better things!!!!